Everybody's changing.

I'm aware the first two blog posts were a little long so I'll keep this relevant to a theme:

Change.

It made me sad recently, looking through old photographs. I've had so many brilliant times and had so many brilliant friends. But now I feel like I'm stuck in limbo land. There's no one I feel truly close to anymore. Justin kind of assumed the role of best friend along with boyfriend, and now there's a gap there that I most definately notice. I want to go on holiday, do some different things, but I have no one to go with.

I went to STA travel to see where I could go travelling this summer. Will I get bored or lonely alone though? I thought going on my own might be a good experience. It made me sad that my old best friend booked 3 weeks in India with another mate. I'm not her best friend anymore, but we used to see each other every day. I want to make more effort, I called her, I'm going to remember to contact her weekly. I'm going to send all my old friends from home valentines day cards. We used to be a proper little gang, but not anymore. I feel bad because when I went to uni I didn't think much of other's decisions to stay home: and vice versa. Home is a commutable distance from uni. I should go home more often.

My housemates. Last year we were the fabulous 5. We were inseperable. Now I'm just not clicking with them anymore since we started living together, the dynamics changed. I like them, they're my mates, but they're not my best friends like I thought they were.

New friends. I make them all the time. I laugh I joke, we meet up with mutual friends. But it never goes further. It never progresses to that stage of closeness and trust.

Preston. In September I move to Preston to commence my clinical training. It could be an incredible chance for a new start, but what a change. I consider Manchester my hometown, and I love it so. I've never lived anywhere else.

I taught life support in a primary school today, and the teacher referred to me as an adult. What?! I'm just a kid! But I'm not am I. I work, I study for a professional degree, I pay rent and bills, I cook, I clean, I shop.

I cleaned my room today, properly. It felt good to get rid of all the dust and the mess. I look at it now and it's fresh and lovely. Good as new.

Change happens, inevitably. I found some awesome quotes about change.

Every new day is another chance to change your life.

The times in life, that seems to be the worst, always turn out for the best!

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash! Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke. Cry. Get revenge. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell the asshole what you feel. Let someone know what they're missing. Laugh til your stomach hurts. LIVE LIFE!
I intend on grabbing life with both hands.